Been to Taiwan for 3 weeks. This time round being the second trip over there.
The place has the nice scenery and the cool weather.
The food there just as nice and the RnR just as worth it.

Now, the next overseas trip would be my last during my NSF term- to australia.

And, I've accepted a new course.
For now I'm settling for Materials Engineering at NTU.

Hey, can u stop it?
I dun like but have no choice to serve army.
But, who likes it anyway?!

I feel very weighed down by the whole issue.
must serve, go outfield, account for anything and everything, do countless of extra duties, saikang, chiong, less rest than men, time spent doin all these army stuff.
All the way from enlistment, my view of the service has changed alot.
Overloaded with too many responsibilities with minimum monetary rewards.
C'mon, im feeling the lethargy inside my everyday's duties.I can say that i deserve every cent i've earned through this allowance.
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Why guards, why not BMTC?
Why combat, why not CSS?
Why dun i get those i deem as slacker positions?
I'm not of the calibre to lead my men to warzone, even if the need arises.

My life seems to be clouded with much uncertainity, for who knows what may come?
Would i get injuries during training?
Would my injuries be life-long?
Would i be able to get the service injury card?
Would i get to relinquish of my appointment?

Criticise me as much as you want, but my views remains obstinate.
If anyone thinks i din achieve whatever i should as a comd, remove me from the appt!
If so many more can achieve but i cant, den get them to do all the work.
Why implement any extra duties which i will definitely kenna in time to come, if u think im that bad?
Substitute me, get replacement!
Things doesnt work smoothly, something effective must be done.
Corrective training cant mould a combatant from a non-combatant in such a short span of time.
I feel the whole issue is abt mismatchment of manpower.
Why bother to ask for opinions if pre-planning were meant to be forced upon?

Why can some play squash in camp while others have to work overnight, only to face with new problems the next day?
Why can some play whatever online games, while other cant even touch the computer?
Why must some stayin, while others stayout?
Why some get air-conditioned office, while others in the outfield under the hot sun?

I'm not complaining abt what others may get, but i'm not at all okie with what i'm in lack of.
I need more rest, less workload, and most importantly to be given a non-combatant job scope.
I hate this vocation.
Thats my opinion.

For the late updates, i've passed thru the GCC course quite sometime ago- 17th jan to be exact.Now officialy the bearer of a khaki beret and guards tab!

This course taught me lots of things, had me to endure quite a bit before it was the end. Luckily, i got to have some buddies that i knew beforehand that helped me pull thru the course.
THANKS!

Then after, i took over as a sect comd. My guys will have to stick with me for the next 1 yr plus. So have to endure that long before i ORD.

The first thing i knew was that i went overseas trip with my unit. That is to brunei.
It wasnt all that short 13 days. For it had me pushed myself hard and further than what i thought i could have achieved, this trip will be one hard to forget in years to come. Brunei's weather is pretty bad, maybe too wet for my likening. Everything there can be paid by S$ but i din get too much things from there. Food is nice over there, accomadation was alright and the whole trip a nightmare for myself.

Highlights of the week
coastal swim training


Rapelling



Roping

Fast march

hey, i've passed through one week of gcc.
3-4 more weeks to go!

But im all ready to give up anytime soon.
Its just way stressful.

I feel so small, i feel so ill-confident, i feel so distant.
What can i do to closen up the gaps?

Must i really be always be at the top?
Must i always be expecting nothing in return?

Its difficult, really.

All for this tab!


This is the beret after GCC

GCC coming up real soon, wish me luck!

Sorry that i haven post any updates.
I was back in Singapore some couple of weeks ago.
Nice weather there.
Greater Rnr period of time.


Yeps, I have graduated 2 weeks back as a 3sg(inf).
Off from SISPEC and im posted to 1gds.
Surprise, surprise!

Ready to Strike! EARN IT!

Been there, done that.
Done with all the necessary training in Singapore, its time for Republic Of China.

The past few days were horrible to me, but in the meantime not as scary as they used to sound.
Had to cope with 4 missions.
Ex Grandslam 2.

Now theres plenty of mosquito bites, sandflies bites and blisters on me.
Ahh.
Need a bit more time to recuperate before i get back into the army business again.

Aniways, i've yet to update that i'm posted to infantry.
Tens of thousands have passed through the same route as me.
And i'm only a specialist.
I believe that days will pass through and i'll see that everything will end soon.

Life is filled with lots of different stages.
We'll have to transit to the next phase as time comes.
After this trip to meilin would be graduation parade where i'll be a full-fledged sergeant.
This time will come soon enough.

Then that after would be to be the command tour as a sect comd if nothing goes wrong.

To speak of what I've failed.
If given the choice.. who would not want to get great results, get into a great undergraduate course, be earning big bucks, be at the top of the chain of command.
Or to be honest to himself about the situation he is facing.
Why am i then looking into the mirror at someone who have not had any achivements in life.
Why?

HEY YA.
EX. grandslam is coming up this week.
Its actually slightly less than that- tues through friday.
4 days aint that long after all.
Easily can count with fingers on one hand.

A summary exercise in Singapore that marks the end of the training.
Then it'll gonna be time for meilin.
My turn to get to visit Taiwan.

Daunting task straight.
Gonna need lotsa rest.